Life is just passing by

Yesterday I saw a girl….hmmm…..I better say already a woman that 4 years ago graduated form school and choir,pushing her baby-carriage.I felt so strange and bad…..
The last memory I remember her was when we were on a tour in Spain and I clearly can see her on the bus stairs flirting and giggling at a Russian boy asking him to take a photo with the other girls.So childish and teenager I remembered her and now when I saw her like that,I`m not saying it`s bad curse to have a child,no,that`s great miracle for each person.However,seeing her like that made me think of myself-Is life passing by so fast?Am I so grown up to see people,almost from my childhood,married and with babies?Is that what expecting me after some couple of years?I just……..dunno….

I would not forget the teenage smile of my memory and the smile of the mother at her baby,the smile of the life changed Silvia.

To be unnoticeable or To be noticeable

 I don`t like to share my personal life with people because I trust somebody rarely.However what  I`m going to do now is very difficult for me because I realize that many people could read it.Someone would ask,then why are you doing this?!because I can`t bare it any more and I want to hear/read opinions about this case.

Me and my classmates are goning to reach the age when you have the full rights to do everything you want-drive,drink,go to night clubs,choose who would lead our country properly,the age when you start to lead your life,to decide for your own after few months .All these make me think that we are going to call ourself responsible,elder people.

However,I would never say that for two boys from my class.

Once upon a time there were four happy friends-helping each other on tests,making fun together,talking about different things.But like in most stories here we have dark side of the things,too.
Everthing started with the ad of a drink with a crocodile-Christopher and an elephant-Edi 4 months ago.The two boys started to call my friend Edi because she is not very slim and me-Chris(Christopher).I don`t know if they think I`m ugly like a crocodile but I don`t think I am!
One day,when we still talk at each other,I ask them why do you call me like that?-”because of your eyes,they are green”-the most stupid thing I`ve ever heard.
Then I cool my relationship with them,stop to talk with them,stop to help them with the tests and so on.
I know I shouldn`t care about such bull*****,only those who don`t care are winners in life-people told me.

Yesterday an explanation about all that hit me.
I sat alone on a desk and start to look around,a girl come and we started to talk,then another girl and another.All that happens within 10 min.-the break.Suddenly I saw that everybody who was in the room was around my desk except them two-sitting on the last desk laughting at something.One of the them got up and wrote on the black board this  
                                 C_ _ _ _ _ _ le
“guess the word”-he said laughting and looking at me.The crowd around me guessed but said nothing.
My conlusion is that they suffer(it`s a strong word) lack of attention and when see so many people like my company thay want to humilate me in front of these people.They are just jealose about that.Or I am wrong and just calm down myself woth that?!?

Probably such people will never grow up.

Do you believe?!?

Girls are like
apples on trees.The best
ones are at the top of the tree.
The boys don`t want to reach for
the good ones because they are afraid
of falling and getting hurt.Instead,they
just get the rotten apples from the ground
that aren`t as good,but easy.So the apples
at the top think something is wrong with
them,when in reality they`re amazing.
They just have to wait for the right
boy to come along,the one
who`s brave enough
to climb
all the way
to the top
of  the tree.

Conclusion from nowhere

I realize that the education,students and teachers are totaly different from 2 decades ago.

• Education has lowered,
  Our Math teacher has told us that he give us math problems very,very easier than those which he had given to our parents and if he give us a similar problem on a test we would watching it and then-F as a mark.
  My best friend`s mom was watching us while we were preparing for the next day accounting examination and asked us with suspeciousness and wondering:”Is that all you have practiced on for the loans?!?”Then she told us when she was a student in our school,they`ve practiced one thing till they pissed of it.However,now she still know accounting and helps to my friend with the difficulties on that field.

• Students-yeah,students are “the best”
  -sex,drugs and cigarettes at the age of under 14.what do you think?
  At school arrogance with classmates because “Do you know who is my father and could do?”
  Their behaviour with their teachers is the same because they know,they have been told they are privilege.
  They think they can have everything without many effords.Here an example about  copy\pasting on a test.He\she thinks”what so,now I have fun,go out with friends,listen to music and tomorrow I`ll sit down next someone who knows and I will get B,somehow.”That I called Avoiding Responsibilities.Ok,but are you going avoiding responsibilities whole your life?
  I`m very afraid what kind of generation we will be in the future,when we have to work for our livings.

• And it`s pretty normal teachers has changed,too.
  Years ago students were afraid from teachers or it`s better to say they had respect to them.Nowadays the positions are switched-teachers afraid and  carefully choose their words or treatment to the students.This because if a student`s parents go and say some bad words for a teacher,there and here,the same one could stay wothout job.
   However,I was very disappointed of my accounting teacher,who I thought very good at her field.
  Last time we had lecture with her,she said:”well,I have to lecture you about something,but since it won`t be asked on the Formal Exam next year we’ll skip it.”
  I stoped and thought for a while,What could that mean?
  It appearce,she doesn`t prepare us for real life situations but just to pass the exam.It`s ok but how about someday we are accounter in a company and we have to do exactly that something she has skiped to teach us,and there isn`t anyone to tell how to do it.
  It ‘hurt’ to find out such truths about life!

Gypsies in Bulgaria

They are many;they are dirty;they are hungry and nobody likes them.

Why???

Gypsies were nomads in the Past,they were roaming lands,looking for  food  and when it finished-moving to a next place with more food.
However,when the nations formed their boundaries ,gues where gypsies stayed because of the favourable conditions and food;)-That`s right Bulgaria(its geografic position-so central for Balcans,four seasons,mountаиnes and a sea,fertile soil for crop and nice weather)wow,what a advertisement for Bulgaria I did

However,let me turn back to the main question-why they are not very pleasant to the other people?

This summer I`ve read “Под Игото”  for second time and something made me think very deeply.In one of the last “scenes ” was described the rising of the Bulgarians,there a gypsy woman goes to the bei and tells him where Bulgarians are,further a gypsy man is found of Bulgarians to spy them and they torture him.
Now I find parts of that hatred for the betrayals, gypsies done for our great-grand parents ,in many people( in Ataka men)
This could be one of the reasons why Bulgarians don` t like them. 

It`s hard to be a gypsy because of the poverty among that community.However,someone would say that there are very rich gypsies,who are very kind and helpful.-OK,but are all gypsies rich-No.There are so many who haven`t where to sleep,what to eat.Are all of them kind  and helpful-No.The misery made them  thiefs and liers.These are parts of their character,which meke them nasty for bulgarians.And not only Bulgarians,every other nation don`t like them,don`t believe them and try to avoid them.

Nowadays the government trys to incorporate gypsy community-more jobs for them and education for their children.
However,they are used to be free,not to “obey”  and do whatever they want.Children,who were signed to go to school, go for several months and then stop or even don`t come at all.Then the answear their parents give to the question why don`t you let the children go to school is because there is no money for text books,new clothes or for breakfast.(I don`t think they very honest)What about their parents-I think they are glad to have a job and money they could bring home but this is only in the begining,soon the laziness comes.

 Their joining is very difficult not only because of them but also because of the presumption of others,too.I remember now an example:one morning I was hury and I ordered a taxy,the car came at time.when I came in I saw the driver was a gypsy but so what,I was hury-this was a taxy.yes,but the engine stoped and the man couldn`t light it and called another car to take me.I changed the cars.in the other car the driver was angry because of the gypsy,his words:мръсни цигани,те не са хора,дадохме им чисто нови коли да карат те ги съсипаха.I`m not sure that  съсипване is because of the gypsy man,however.

They don`t believe gypsies could change or there are gypsies which  differ from others.
Ok,they stay unemployed because of such people,they don`t have money to let their children to school,they stay without education and what else left them-that`s right to make children-the only thing they can do best.

Then tell me,how they differ  from animals?